What has changed?

So, I have been married now for 4 years and we have had a pretty easy marriage. My wife and I genuinely care about each other and I learn every so often that genuine become more genuine with time and experience. This is not the point though.

In these past 4 years my wife and I have been apart from each other very few evenings. Sometimes we have a late night were I am working while she is sleeping or even where I have played or worked through the night and she has sent me to bed when she woke up. Those I am not counting, I mean nights where we are separated by more than walls and door but by miles, city limits, and/or state borders. I am a student and so such is not required of me in a profession (currently, who knows about the future).

Last time that I remember is when my wife went to Disneyland with her sisters some time ago (this is my ambiguity that means I am terrible with dates and time keeping on things like this). On that occasion she was gone for 5 days (I think) and in truth I missed the company of my family but probably enjoyed the peace of being alone more than I missed everything else. They were all back (meaning her and the kids) before not having them wore on me too much.

This time around, my wife with the kids are gone for a week visiting her mother. I have not been able to enjoy the peace and quiet because I have missed everyone so much. I wish to hold her and have her here with me. I want the joy in my childrens' faces as I chase them through the house on my hands and knees. I miss it all. The craving is very poignant and has hit me hard, so what has changed in the year-ish gap since the last time?

I don't know. But I think that I'm going through withdraws. Maybe that one friend was right when she told us in high school that we were addicted to each other. Time makes quitting harder from what I'm told.

Searching an unstable ecconomy

Recently I have been thinking a lot about how I will support my family in the current economy. I'm not one to get bent out of shape over the little problems but this is my family and so my direct responsibility. Through many changes I decided that I would like to be a Spanish teacher but the more I look at it the more I worry about providing for my family. I know that I would love it, and that I love spending time with my kids and wife but how well can I fulfill both of those?

A teacher does not often make enough to support a family on just that job which would mean that I would need to get another job (meaning less time with my family) or my wife would have to work as well, something that see is not eager to do at this point. Also, teachers tend to work strange hours longer than their pay affords if any teacher is to be believed.

I have thought some about looking more into a job working with computers, as it is my minor anyway. I have been reluctant to go that way because I am not sure how much I would like to program all day. I am not a hard core programmer but I have been programming for quite a few years now and spend a lot of my time doing it. I say that I am not sure if that is what I want to do all the time and yet, currently, it is what I do all the time. It seems a little two sided to me too, but those are my feelings.

The more I think about providing for my family, the more I become more amenable to going that way. It seems to be one of the few markets that has been little effected by the dip in the economy and pays pretty well at the end of the day. Besides that it allows for a little more structure which I want to have for my family.

Is it the right choice? Only God knows, I'll check in with him before I make a final decision, but for now I must ponder it ot in my mind.

Going Nowhere fast

So, yeah, nowhere and in a hurry even. I have been enjoying my first and likely last every term class (how do people keep up). I am enjoying teaching and trying to share more ideas but realizing that I might have done it better last time around, oh well, we are covering more material and everyone seems exited about what we plan to get to.

I think a nice happy medium will work better. Any way, better get back to work.